The Waiting...

We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name.
May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you.
Psalm 33:20-22


Fittingly, I opened the Bible this morning to this Psalm. Hmmm...who could have orchestrated that?:)
Today we met my oncologist, Dr. Havard. He may be a distant cousin to James Taylor, I am not sure...he resembles him in some way. Much brighter though, as Dr. Havard studied at UCLA. However, I have never actually spoken with James Taylor, so I cannot be sure.
He went over my story and examined the "bad guy". He explained, very clearly, how cancer begins. Jason and I have both done our fair share of google cancer research, so we were able to follow him.
I was hoping for a battle plan to be set up today, but after talking with him I see that that was premature. We need to wait. Again.
I am waiting on the results of 2 tests. After we have these results we will set up the chemo/surgery or surgery/chemo. Which ever seems to be the best plan of attack!
These test are being done because I am 36 with Breast Cancer (stage 2-3), with no family history of BC.
The 1st test, a PetScan, will take place on Thursday. This will determine if there are any hints of any other cancer or suspicious spots in my body(besides the spots in my left breast). My chest xray I took last week came back clear, so that gives us hope that the PetScan will also be clear.
The 2nd test, a genetic testing, will be done to rule out that I have a BRCA mutated gene, causing this breast cancer. "They" say that my chances are about 7% of carrying this. In the case of a positive result, it means there is an increased cancer risk for another breast cancer and/or ovarian cancer. In which case, you would have all of that removed to prevent future cancer in those areas. My family does not have a history of Breast Cancer, so we are expecting a negative result (isn't it weird how a negative is a positive?).
Both test results could take up to 2 weeks, so we will wait. But, I won't be waiting, sitting on the couch, staring off, feeling sorry for myself or sad. NO SIR! I will be passing the time, cleaning, packing, filling out new school registration forms, getting our affairs in order...

I am SO thankful to have the move to focus on during this time. It gives us hope and something to look forward to. Of course, the move is bittersweet. We are leaving SO much we love(pretty sure I have said that before!).
But, when we were in San Diego this weekend, visiting the church and the kids' school, we felt nothing but c-o-n-f-i-r-m-a-t-i-o-n from the Lord, that this is our new home!

On a note of praise! Bellen has successfully weaned! Thank you Jesus! It wasn't looking hopeful there for a few days. But her daddy got the task done! She loves her bottle now and I even think she forgot about how much she loved nursing (though a small, wistful part of me hasn't). We had a good 8 & 1/2 month run, and I shall be thankful for that!:) Thank you for those of you who prayed us thru those few days.