Eyes above the waves

So the week before Meran & I left for New York I came down with what I wrote off as strep (again). I had a busy week, getting ready to leave Jason and the other 3 kids behind and also entertained company twice. Probably not the best choice, knowing that I get myself run down and start to feel sick when I over do it (such a baby). We went to New York and I rallied for the occasion. (Aka took Motrin:)

When we returned, we hit the ground running with end-of-the-year school events and happenings. All super fun stuff, but I just was feeling very tired still. I saw my regular doc last Friday, who sent guessed it was my thyroid. We ran tests, did a neck ultrasound and chest X-ray. All came back normal! 

Gotta love my veins...it's like I don't have any!

Proud of all this blood, the nurse had to poke 3x to get this much

Almost, normal anyway. The chest X-ray revealed that I have a small left pleural effusion (build up of fluid between the layers of tissue that line the lungs) and slight elevation of the left hemidiaphragm. 

This was thought to be caused from perhaps mono....but that test came back negative. 

So yesterday I went for a CT Scan of my chest and neck. My doc called me literally an hour after I had the scan (not usually a good sign). She told me they saw signs that could be "lung cancer" in my left side.

 I said, "okay, but I don't believe you" (sassy, aren't I ;)

She told me a bunch of stuff I couldn't remember once I hung up because I need stuff in writing to process it & that I have an appointment at my oncologist's Thursday afternoon. So, after a quick call to Jason to give him the scoop I bee-lined it up to the 3rd floor to request prayer from any and every pastor who was there at that time. God's timing is ALWAYS perfect. 

I was met and guided into Pastor Miles office where he and about 12 other pastors prayed for God's healing hand, peace and guidance. I felt God's peace from the very start. And so it begins...I've been at this door before. Not really wanting the door to be opened and then once it's opened, do I want to pass over the threshold? Don't have a choice really, but I am trusting God, believing that whatever we find out today out at the oncologist God will heal and He is in control. Please join me on beseeching the Father for complete restoration to my lung!

Oceans by Hillsong United

You call me out upon the waters

The great unknown where feet may fail

And there I find You in the mystery

In oceans deep

My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand

Will be my guide

Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

(6x)

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You will call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

In the presence of my Savior

(Chorus)