However, I'm gonna need to kick it up a notch on the fight on this uphill battle.
I've said it before and I'm saying it again...I won't go down easy! Planning on kicking some cancer-ass (yes, it's ok to cuss when it comes to cancer;).
The scan showed the cancer in my stomach area that we had seen whenever I had surgeries where they put the internal camera inside, but never showed up on a scan....until this week. It's also increased its presence on my liver and also near or kind of on the small and large intestine. I had been feeling a little discomfort this past week or so on my left side so I figured there was something going on.
There were 3 treatment options on the table. I'm choosing to do the most immediate and drastic first, which is iv chemo, thru a port (boooooooo:( ). Supposedly only 30% of those on this chemo lose there hair and I reallllllly hope I'm in the other 70 percent. Been there done that. Plus, I feel like it's so much easier on the kids if I don't "look" sick.
The second treatment is a trial drug that actually opens today, but in order to retrieve my old tumor, test it and do the paperwork, we are looking at a 15-20 day start day from now. I don't like the idea of the cancer getting to have its way until then, so I'm choosing this iv chemo (which will begin next week) and if it doesn't work I'll switch to the trial, once approved.
Praise be to God I have great peace amidst this storm. It does seem, of course, really poor timing as I'm suppose to start packing because we move at the end of this month, but will be starting chemo instead. Maybe I'll just give everything away to make it easier ;).
This morning I woke up with Psalms 23:4 running thru my head
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
I'm learning what this really means! Finding true comfort as I walk this road through the valley, shadowed by death. If I just keep my eyes straight ahead, focused on Jesus, the shadows don't seem as threatening, and I can still walk through the valley and enjoy the good things that are along the way.
Please pray for Jason, the kids and our families, as they wear the heaviest burden of watching through this process. Pray for God's healing for my body. This is the God who separated the ocean, flooded the lands but spared Noah his family and 2 of every kind of animal, allowed a small boy to take down a giant with one stone, who created the heaven and earth, who kept himself on the cross for the love of us....I know HE CAN heal me.