If you think you are having a "bad day", think again. If this 2 year old can laugh and smile after all she has been through and still going through, you too can make it through whatever seems to be your mountain today. There is always someone in a worse situation than you. This doesn't discount your situation. Nor does it make your feelings invalid. However, there is always, always, something to be thankful for!
I've been reflecting this year about how last time around (2011-12), I struggled with feelings of anger, frustration, doubt. This time, even though the territory is a bit more unknown, I don't struggle with those same feelings. The reason is because God is gently teaching me to surrender. I have surrendered this stuff...my wandering mind, my future, my family, my cancer...
I Peter 5:7
Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you
By emptying myself of all that negative "what if", I leave myself an open vessel for Jesus to pour Himself into it.
If I walk through this cancer again, without learning lessons, then it's all in vain. Wasted. Truly it would be a life not lived to the fullest. By using my "mountain" as my spiritual school I am living my richest life. I can honestly say that this year is the richest year we have had...as a family, as a couple, me personally.
I'm writing these thoughts now, less than a week away from my scans, to mark the progress my chemo is making, incase I need encouragement (or a swift kick in the butt;). It's all a process. We never arrive. Life is a journey.
But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.
*Pictures taken from prayersforkylie.com